New Year is here and I don't want to bore myself by sounding a whiner!!
Even then.. here it goes...
I have a lot of dreams. On the other hand, I have even more reasons to fail. I know each one of them to be true and that frightens me to death. Yet ironically, sometimes accepting them and say 'I can't' makes me feel safe. It comforts my nerves.
In those moments of weaknesses, I look back and commend myself for what I have done and achieved( mostly by mere luck and sometimes by hard work). It ain't that bad. hmm.. It looks good. Not bad.
I am not at peace and only I could feel that. Some commend for what I am, today. Some dream with me about my future and some think small of me. I appreciate the applauds and cares and love. Rest, simply I don't care.
Some have hopes on me and some are judging me. And all I ask for is peace. Not money. Not fame. Not status. Not social acceptance. Wait. It could be social acceptance.
I am a bit after success and that is social recognition, right? But, I for sure, know that too would not give me peace. Because, I had been successful many a times in the past and those moments have flown as fast as they had come.
I am not down. But there is something I want to do and I know, I can do them. But I am not doing it and that aches.
Rather than accepting the so called 'FACTS'. I am going to be bold and run out of reasons to not be successful. Ha. See again. I am for sure after success.
I am going to be bold and not accept defeat even though I am flawed. Even though I don't deserve it. Even though I am not a genius.
Why not give it a shot. I could turn out to be 'The David' who slayed the Goliath. Okay if I fail or even if I my work is not recognized socially.
Atleast, I will find my peace.
Wish you all a very happy new year. Hoping and praying - You too have hope!!
Even then.. here it goes...
I have a lot of dreams. On the other hand, I have even more reasons to fail. I know each one of them to be true and that frightens me to death. Yet ironically, sometimes accepting them and say 'I can't' makes me feel safe. It comforts my nerves.
In those moments of weaknesses, I look back and commend myself for what I have done and achieved( mostly by mere luck and sometimes by hard work). It ain't that bad. hmm.. It looks good. Not bad.
I am not at peace and only I could feel that. Some commend for what I am, today. Some dream with me about my future and some think small of me. I appreciate the applauds and cares and love. Rest, simply I don't care.
Some have hopes on me and some are judging me. And all I ask for is peace. Not money. Not fame. Not status. Not social acceptance. Wait. It could be social acceptance.
I am a bit after success and that is social recognition, right? But, I for sure, know that too would not give me peace. Because, I had been successful many a times in the past and those moments have flown as fast as they had come.
I am not down. But there is something I want to do and I know, I can do them. But I am not doing it and that aches.
Rather than accepting the so called 'FACTS'. I am going to be bold and run out of reasons to not be successful. Ha. See again. I am for sure after success.
I am going to be bold and not accept defeat even though I am flawed. Even though I don't deserve it. Even though I am not a genius.
Why not give it a shot. I could turn out to be 'The David' who slayed the Goliath. Okay if I fail or even if I my work is not recognized socially.
Atleast, I will find my peace.
Wish you all a very happy new year. Hoping and praying - You too have hope!!
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